Where Did I Go

I’ve wondered for so long.
So cold
And all alone.
I’ve question and ached,
But had the knowledge
All along.
Some days it’s so clear;
Not black
Nor gray.
How could I be so far gone?
How did I lose my way?
His grasp
So tight,
Around my heart,
Around my mind.
My soul is screaming
For vitality
That once existed,
But vanished in the abyss.
This abrasive taste of reality
Is something
I’ll never miss.
My strength
I’m searching for;
I’ve lost me.
Everything.
Down to the core.
Where did I go?
Where am I going?
Does anyone know?

Friends Forever

THE PAIN
RUNS DEEP
LIKE THE TRENCHES IN THE OCEAN
SO DARK
SO COLD
LIKE A WINTER’S BITTER NIGHT
IT STABS
IT RIPS
SHREDDING WHAT I THOUGHT WAS MY HEART
I WAS
NEVER HIS
WHAT A DEXTEROUS PLAN HE PROUDLY OWNED
HE LIED
HE LAUGHED
MY TEARS HAVE YET TO DRY
WAS BLINDLY
IN LOVE
WITH AN IDEAL GENTLE MAN
HIS VOICE
SEEMS FRIGID
I WANT BACK THE LOVE I GAVE
BUT WEAKNESS
IS MINE
I GUESS WE’RE “FRIENDS” FOREVER

To Fall Again

Listening to a sad love song
While screaming in a pillow;
The pains of love I loved for so long
Vanish like the wind through a willow.
Questions running in and out
My mind about to burst.
The way my heart found out;
To swallow pride is the worst.
Decisions I should have made
Made myself more vulnerable.
Now I just lay a fool
That couldn’t be more miserable.


How many times
Does anyone have the ability
To build the strength
To fall again


I surrender to the fate of you and I
There’s nothing more I can do
To show you
That all my love is real for you
I’ve laid it on the line
Time and time again
Just to be told
We’re just good friends
If there was something I missed
Something else I could do
Something to fix this
To make it a feeling brand new


How does someone let go of what they never held
Can anyone teach me that life lesson
How does someone let go of what they felt
Can anyone teach me how to stop stressin’
I know it’s over & I’m trying to let go
I know how a broken heart feels
I know she’s lucky to have him to hold
I remember how he feels